Recently I’ve heard a song by Jaiden Animations and Boyinaband called “Empty”. It talks about Jaiden’s anorexia and how she went through it. I felt the need to draw something based on it and then share with everyone how I struggled with something similar and how I got better.
Back in December of 2016 when I first joined sketch club, my parents were going to get a divorce. I felt terrible, and that’s when I started to stop eating. At first my mom found out and I stopped, but then during the summer of 2017 I started again. I knew that I could skip meals without them knowing, lying to them when they got home saying “Yeah, I ate blah blah blah for breakfast and blah blah blah for lunch”. After awhile I got curious about what I was doing to myself, and went to the internet. I found out that it could lead to an eating disorder and I did NOT like the sound of that since I knew my mom also dealt with that when she was younger and I didn’t want her to waste her time worrying about me. I ended up messaging a friend and they convinced me to eat something. That cycle repeated and at this point I was open about it and talked to friends about what I was going through. I really didn’t want to bother them with my problems, but it was for my own good. I got counseling for it, and here I am now.
If you are someone trying to do this to yourself, do what you can to stop. You are someone who matters and who will have an impact on this Earth at some point or another. You might not want to open up or tell anyone, but it’s the best thing you can do. It was scary for me to, trust me. Just know that there ARE people who love and care about you to help you get through this, even if it’s not this kind of situation. Connecting with someone and taking the necessary steps to get yourself better again is worth what you don’t want to do.
I hope that this helps someone. If you’d like to, please talk to someone about what you’re going through. Even if it’s a pet or a journal for you to get your thoughts on paper that helps too.
You’re not alone anymore.